i'm not sure.
i think i like you. i really really like you. but then all so suddenly i hate you. i hate they way you make me feel and how you leave me reeling, wanting more, hoping for too much.
then i get knocked down again. it might be my paranoia playing out to make it seem like what it seems but it hurts. it genuinely hurts. after so long of hurting i'm finally healed and for some reason i want to hurt again. what is wrong with me? for you, is it worth that pain?
i should have withdrawn while i still could. instead i let this feeling linger on for too long and now it is going to bleed.
but this time i'll learn. hopefully, i'll learn to love someone worth loving.