i don't know why
i still get these sporadic panic attacks where i just cry and freak out over the accident.
even though the 3 of them are fine, out of hospital, back to their normal lives,
i still freak out. it's like some really delayed reaction.
just the thought of almost losing her too, i could have lost her
but i didn't right?
i guess God figured it would have been too much to lose 2 people in a month.
cause 5 months down the lane i'd still be hung up and crying over losing just one.
i hate this.